I'm BACK! Hello world, hello new year, hello FRESH START and new beginnings.
For many of you, the new year started last week, when the clock struck midnight and your diet kicked into full swing. But, despited the blanket of ice that has immobilized the surrounding metropolis, today is a day of MOVEMENT in my soul for the coming months ahead.
Each year brings change. Change is rarely comfortable, and so preparing for a new horizon of possibilities can feel daunting at times. As I rested over the holidays (oh, and also worked my buns off at the mall handling the wackiest of customers) I was reminded how my actions are merely a reflection of the strength God provides me.
I do because He did. Not the other way around.
I felt fear in looking ahead at my schedule for the coming year: All the obligations I have as a mother to wipe noses and make sure I hug and kiss enough and read the right story books and get them to eat at least one vegetable. All the passion I have as a wife to serve my husband well and encourage him and speak truth to him and love him with genuine respect and admiration and romance. All the fortitude and determination I sink into being a grad student, the piles of books and papers and the unattainable task to always be the best in class. All the anxiety and excitement of taking on my first clients for therapy and being vulnerable enough to absorb the critiques of my supervisors.
It's a lot. It's too much for me. But, it's not too much for my God, and not a surprise to Him at all that I recognize my weakness through the challenges of the life I'm living.
There are a lot of goals I have for 2014, but essentially they all culminate into one word: thrive. I don't want to just survive anymore. I don't want to just see what's in store for the day and check boxes that get me from A to Z. I don't want to just look down and see the tracks I've made in the path behind me, but I want to stake out new ground, uncover new strengths, and seek out fresh perspectives that I've never known before.
There are many midnights ahead of us to create, and recreate continual resolutions for the days ahead. We can each take refuge in the strength we don't have by resting in the assurance of the stronghold that we do. Thank you God for a fresh start, for the chance to change, to refine, to restore. Thank you for new years and new opportunities. Your grace is like new fallen snow, even as my dirty black boots trudge through the unchartered areas.
Thank you for the future. Here I come.